My adventure in becoming a [Good] Mormon

Archive for June, 2010

If it be Your will…

Pretty much anything Leonard Cohen puts out I find relates to me in some manner, this being no exception (actually, the exact opposite LOL).  Now, it’s not Cohen singing (this song of his is the only one I find very dull when he sings it, except when he was younger),  it’s some guy named Antony and yes, he moves to the music weird when he sings, but his voice is gorgeous. This is another religious type song I don’t find fake or obnoxious.

The whole theme of the song is submitting yourself to and following God’s will, something I’m working on, as I think many of us are. It’s a hard concept to go with, trying to accept that an unseen force (or being if you wish) will, when you let it (Him), take you where you need to go and help/show/do what is  best for you (if you noticed, I’m having an issue with words =P), even though, at the time, it may not seem so.

There are a few particular events in my life where I am pretty much resisting, full force, going with God’s will because I am so worried about them (that and I’m a stubborn butt head the majority of the time LOL). I don’t want to do this, yet I can’t give up the determination that has kept me going in a positive manner because I don’t want to be told ‘no’ in the end, regardless if it’s the best way for me.

I read a story somewhere (probably a chain email) about a woman whose son was dying and she prayed, bargained etc for his life but he got progressively worse. Only when she finally said ‘Ok, you do it.’ (or some variation on that) did he finally get better. That’s one thing that inspires me to keep going in my fight against my own fight XD. Plus some scriptures, but I’ve highlighted so much it would take forever to find and quote(something tells me it’s in Enos, I’d have to check my journal though, I practically highlighted that whole chapter)

WordPress is being stupid so I can’t go below the link, but enjoy the vid.

Live long & prosper!!♥

Happy father’s day!

Ok, if you know me, you’re probably thinking ‘Odd, Cass doesn’t talk to her Dad…Why is she celebrating it?’. But at my house we have Big Brother’s day. Cause when I was a little kid (shorter than I am now…Yeah, that’s possible :P) in elementary they’d always be like ‘Hey, let’s make crafts for Father’s day!’ then I’d be like ‘No haz Dad!’ (ok, my grammar wasn’t that bad) and just so I didn’t miss out on craft making, they told me to make one for my big brother.

So besides wishing my brother happy big brother’s day, there’s another reason for this post. I’ve had a revelation (not the revelation as in like, God is sending me messages…Well, you could argue it is. But nevermind)I decided I do have a Father, but he’s just in Heaven. So I will spend the day celebrating Him!

Live long & Prosper!♥

Musics ♥

Generally, I don’t like ‘religious’ music, like Gospel stuff (with the exception of Sister Act ;D), it just doesn’t work for me. I do like hymns however. But the more mainstream stuff seems like it’s just using music like that to make a quick buck. However, I found one artist that doesn’t seem like that: Matisyahu. He’s a Jewish reggae singer (but his music can be applied to almost any religion) and his music is brilliant.

Lyrics:

You’re all that I have and you’re all that I need
Each and every day I pray to get to know you please
I want to be close to you, yes I’m so hungry
You’re like water for my soul when it gets thirsty
Without you there’s no me
You’re the air that I breathe
Sometimes the world is dark and I just can’t see
With these, demons surround all around to bring me down to negativity
But I believe, yes I believe, I said I believe
I’ll stand on my own two feet
Won’t be brought down on one knee
Fight with all of my might and get these demons to flee
Hashem’s rays fire blaze burn bright and I believe
Out of darkness comes light, twilight unto the heights
Crown Heights burnin’ up all through the twilight
Said, thank you to my God, now I finally got it right
And I’ll fight with all of my heart, and all a’ my soul, and all a’ my might

What’s this feeling?
My love will rip a hole in the ceiling
Givin’ myself to you from the essence of my being
Sing to my God all these songs of love and healing
Want Mashiach now so it’s time we start revealing

Me no want no sinsemilla.
That would only bring me down
Burn away my brain no way my brain is to compound
Elevated my soul you’re a flying my sound
Like the sun of a sun ray burning up through a cloud
Torah food for my brain let it rain till I drown
Thunder!
Let the blessings come down

Strip away the layers and reveal your soul
Got to give yourself up and then you become whole
You’re a slave to yourself and you don’t even know
You want to live the fast life but your brain moves slow
If you’re trying to stay high then you’re bound to stay low
You want God but you can’t deflate your ego
If you’re already there then there’s nowhere to go
If you’re cup’s already full then its bound to overflow
If you’re drowning in the water’s and you can’t stay afloat
Ask Hashem for mercy and he’ll throw you a rope
You’re looking for help from God you say he couldn’t be found
Looking up to the sky and searchin’ beneath the ground
Like a King without his Crown
Yes, I wanna get down
A King without his Crown
Yes, you keep fallin’ down
You really want to live but can’t get rid of your frown
Tried to reach unto the heights and wound bound down on the ground
Given up your pride and the you heard a sound
Out of night comes day and out of day comes light
Nullified to the One like sunlight in a ray,
Makin’ room for his love and a fire gone blaze

What’s this feeling?
My love will rip a hole in the ceiling
Givin’ myself to you from the essence of my being
Sing to my God all these songs of love and healing
Want Mashiach now so it’s time we start revealing

Reelin’ him in
Where ya been
Where ya been
Where ya been for so long
It’s hard to stay strong been livin’ in galus (exile) for 2000 years strong
Where ya been for so long
Been livin in this exile for too long

Yeah, granted there is a bit that’s specifically Jewish, but this song still has lots of meaning for me. As do many of his other songs.

Oh, Hashem, I believe means God. Not clue what sinsemilla means.

Live long & Prosper!!♥

MOAR ANSWERS!!

Ok, answers make me excited!^^

Prayed for: To better know and follow God’s will

Answer: I was toddling about looking up Patriarchal blessings then I read “The desire to receive a patriarchal blessing should come from a desire to know and live God’s will for you.”

I’m gonna do more searching (English class is slowly turning into Scripture study hour) but I think this counts for another answer!!

Live long & Prosper!♥

Family home evenings…

Relatively hard to implement in a single parent home, seeing as my Mom’s always working. As well as, you know, only one of us actually being Mormon…

Sorry, I’m being somewhat fnaaah today on the whole idea that I’m the only [practicing] Mormon in my family. Any Mormon families wanna adopt me?XD

JK!!!I love my family, Mormon or not. But it does get kind of hard being the only one.

Also, I’ve noticed a troll (AKA, someone who checks this regularly but never, as far as I know, says anything). Yes, I can see you! I have a thinger that lets me know how many views a day I get…Expose yourself!!(In a modest manner that is LOL) Perhaps you’re awesome or something!!

Well, I think it’s a regular troll…Might just be assorted people who’ve checked this out….

Live long & Prosper!!♥

* schemey fingers*

This is just a note to myself, cause I know I’ll go back in a month to reread this. I plan to finish Personal Progress by this time next year. I’ve just got to apply the same amount of willpower as I did to Scripture Masteries. I’ll also finish all those next year in Seminary!

Well if that wasn’t obvious…

I just realized something…And I can’t believe it took me this long…*facepalm*

The whole ‘Build your foundation upon the rock of Christ’ (I should be able to spout off a scripture mastery on this, but Brain won’t cooperate, she’s in summer vacation mode…), it finally hit me as to how I can apply it to myself! I’ve been trying/looking/praying to gain a stronger testimony and then that popped into my head and I realized, when building, you need a foundation first. So my testimony has to have the foundation of a belief in Christ first. Then I can start building it up even more.

Well…I laid my foundation like…6 years ago. And I’ve got a little bit built. So I think I’m off to a good start!;D

Live long & Prosper!♥