That is now my official term to describe emotional exhaustion.
I feel like crap. I’m irritable and grouchy and most people are annoying me(with the regular few exceptions of those who never annoy me). I am completely worn out and ready to toss the towel in (that is the correct analogy for surrender right?). And it really sucks 1)comparing yourself to others then feeling completely inferior and just plain squashed (I know I shouldn’t do that, but lately it seems impossible to avoid) and 2)feeling, because of some actions, you’re failing at what your duties are.
I am out of ammo now and I have no clue what other options I have without causing mass drama in the only place there is little to no drama in my life…That, however, seems to be changing. I reeeeally don’t want Church to end up with any amount of drama in it, that’ll kill me.But I don’t know what to do…And I know, people can make their own choices…But it’s killing me to see them headed where I came from or even further off into the distance. And because I can’t seem to turn them around, I feel like I’m seriously failing at what I’ve been tasked with doing.
In fact, a few of my friends have recently started the slow coming about of my death…If they keep this up I’m gonna have 60 year old wrinkles at 30 and I’ll be dead by 45 from stress >.>…
And on top of that all, as I always get in winter, I am insanely hungry all the time. It’s driving me bonkers. Not that I ever gain any weight though, which is nice, but it’s an annoying feeling.
And I’ve degenerated to listening to something close to rap.
I know, I know, I know; ‘Cass, go pray about it’…But I like to rant here first, do homework then pray about it.