My adventure in becoming a [Good] Mormon

Archive for January, 2011

If we are the body

It’s crowded in worship today
As she slips in trying to fade into the faces
The girl’s teasing laughter is carrying farther than they know
Farther than they know

But if we are the body
Why aren’t His arms reaching?
Why aren’t His hands healing?
Why aren’t His words teaching?
And if we are the body
Why aren’t His feet going?
Why is His love not showing them there is a way?
There is a way

A traveler is far away from home
He sheds his coat and quietly sinks into the back row
The weight of their judgemental glances
Tells him that his chances are better out on the road

Jesus payed much too high a price
For us to pick and choose who should come
And we are the body of Christ

Jesus is the way

This song does have an intriguing point. And it completely ties into Sunday’s Sacrament talks. I’m not gonna write too much on it, you take from it what you will…

Can we still be friends?

I was cold and hurting,

lost out in the night.

Wandering and searching

for heaven’s light.

 

I saw the night sky clearing,

when you spread your rainbow wings.

But little did I know

what joy you would bring.

 

From that moment on,

a friendship did start.

You kissed away my tears

and sheltered my heart.

 

I bless the day God,

sent her from above.

But then I grew fearful

for I had fallen in love.

 

I told you this feeling,

and what did you say?

You said you liked our friendship

and that’s how it would stay.

 

I cried for a friendship I thought I lost…

 

 

I don’t know how to finish this poem off : (


Posted by one of my semi-internet friends on FB

Exceptionally satisfying…

No, it’s not chocolate (which I’m currently munching on, so I know ;D LOL).

I just found something that is really mentally and spiritually satisfying. Flat out telling people ‘No, I’m not doing that. It’s against everything I believe in and stand for, so I will not do it’. Granted, I didn’t have a strong relationship with the person who I said it to, but it was nice to say that and afterwards, I felt glad I had the courage to do it and not fear the consequences.

But I was thinking afterwards, you know, whenever faced with situations like this, most people (myself included, except this time it seems) are afraid to do this, because they’re afraid of offending people. Which is good, on one hand, it’s important to be sensitive to others, but in the long run, it’s not that great at all, because people come and go from our lives, but God does not. And if you lose one person from your life because they don’t accept your beliefs, there are 6 billion+ others out there that you could have in your life instead, but there is only one God (Yeah, that’s my wisdom-y thought for the day XD).  It’s like what…I think it was Bishop Grunewald (?) at YW’s last week that said ‘Many of us try to please God without offending Satan and that just isn’t feasible’. And he’s right, you just can’t do it.

So, I think, instead of constantly brooding on how we offended people by staying true to our morals, we should be proud that we had the ability to stand up and stay true to what we believe in and think of how proud God is of us for doing it, not worrying about who just got angry with us because we won’t go along with them. And besides, if our friends truly are our friends, they’ll respect and understand our decision…Or (even better) would not have asked us at all.

Anyways, I’m supposed to be writing scholarship essays XD.

The Ultimate Hopeless-Romantic reading

The Song of Solomon. It’s beautiful. It possibly just outranked Psalms as my favoutite Bible book.

I wish it told who the writers were though. That always intrigues me.

To my internet friends

Skipping 7 because I don’t have an ex.

I don’t really have a friend that I only talk to via internet. I have a few friends I talk to mainly online, then occasionally in real life. Like Gurmeet, Cody, Damion, Bruce and Mark (well…Kind of XD). So to you guys (I’m sure you’ll be able to pick out the bits for each of you);

Thanks for encouraging me to not be down when I am and for encouraging my optimism when it’s not working. I hope everything works out for you, you’re a really nice guy and you don’t deserve whatever crap that is/was going on. You seem to be the first to sense if I’m having a bad day (when I see you at school that is) and because you ask how I am, and really mean it, it makes my day better.

You have great taste in music. You helped me remember quite a few artists/groups that I haven’t listened to in ages. Thanks :).

You also have good taste in music. You’re the only person near my age on my friends list who’s actually liked anything of Leonard Cohen’s that I post. That gives me hope that our generation isn’t completely screwed over, in a musical sense. I enjoy our random comment-conversations. However, when your nails are painted, it kind of scares me. I’m not sure why. Maybe because whenever I see guys with painted nails, it reminds me of ‘Silence of the Lambs’ XD. No offense. Do you remember when you added me last year, even though we didn’t know each other? When I realized who you were after you re-added me this year, it was funny. I guess you’re the only one who originally started as an online-only friend XD.

I hope it all works out for you. Just give it time. And don’t give up on anything, even if it seems difficult. Just keep working at all the things you’re having problems with right now and it’ll get better! I miss our days in elementary, when everything was easier. We’ll have to hang out sometime, I miss you.

You’re one of the reasons I want to eventually get a degree in Theology. Thanks for being smart, I enjoy talking to you! And thanks for showing up to my baptism, it provided quite a bit of entertainment afterwards because, as I heard it, a lot of people either thought you were scary and/or dangerous because you came on a motorbike and wore leathers or they thought you were my dad (or both LOL). Very amusing, but thanks for being there. Every time it’s Robbie Burns day, I think of you and when you brought my mom and I to that celebration. That was cool.

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

To an unknown individual…

I’m not good at making conversation with people I don’t know…Especially on my own. So hi, I’m Cass. I have no idea who you are, or where you are, what you look like or how you speak. I don’t know how you like your eggs, or if you wear your socks in your house. I don’t. And I like them scrambled, if you were wondering, with garlic powder. I don’t know what you like, maybe you like green eggs and ham, Sam I Am, or what you dislike. Perhaps you are irritated by people who talk with their mouth full or you get nervous when you’re in a crowded area and too many people are dressed in purple for your liking. Perhaps purple gives you a headache, which is odd, it’s supposed to be calming.

I don’t know where you’re coming from, or where you’re going. Or why you’re going. Why are you going, stranger? Is it a drive to succeed for your own personal gain? To make the world a better place? Honor and prestige? Or, making a jump to a conclusion here, you were ignored as a child, so subconsciously, you’re trying to impress the father figures in your life because your own father was not as present as he should have been? Maybe I do that too? Probably, according to the little I know about Freudian psychology…Or is it Jungian?  See? One similarity already. We’re on a role.

Maybe you should just sit back, dear stranger, stop trying so hard to please everyone else. Do what pleases you instead, or do things worthwhile. Like play with your kids. Don’t have them? Go make some. The world has an abundance of materials for making those, I’m sure if you take a walk down the street, you’ll find the needed tools. Go up and say ‘Hey, I’d like to have kids, would you assist me?’ I wonder how that’ll go. Let me know ok? Find me on facebook and send me pictures of your happy family, i’m sure they’ll be beautiful.

I am assuming you’re male for some odd reason. Taller, with dark-ish eyes, rather odd looking, no offense, the type that works in some sort of office. With cubicles. Really, no offense. And as you read this, you have an awkward smile on your face, thinking this is a waste of time, or it’s just down-right weird. But it’s amusing too. Like those forwarded emails my mom always sends in abundance. Just throw this momentary amusement out when you’re done, like forwarded emails…Actually, know recycle it. I care about the environment, you should too.

Haha, my hopeless romantic side just reminded me of how similar this is to ‘The Lake House’. Ever seen it? Go watch it, it’s ok for guys to watch chick flicks too, you know.

Well, what a delightful one sided conversation eh? I’m glad you enjoyed yourself, you did, I know it. I have to go to bed now, my future hangs by a thread that is dependent on the outcome of tomorrow between 9 and 11:30 am.

So long, stranger.

This is a fantastic idea, perhaps I will give this to a random person on the street one day.

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

This is my beloved and I am His

” He revealed his character to Moses and his deeds to the people of Isreal. The LORD is merciful and gracious; he is slow to get angry and full of unfailing love. He will not constantly accuse us, nor remain angry forever. He has not punished us for all our sins, nor does he deal with us as we deserve. For his unfailing love toward those who fear him is as great as the height of the heavens above the earth. He has removed our rebellious acts as far away from us as the east is from the west.” –  Psalm 103:7-12

Jesus, You’ve done all this for me. You know when I stumble, but you also know my heart better than anyone. You have peered into the very depths of my soul. You have seen my worth and have accepted me dispite my faults.  You want the best for me and that is for me to surrender and die to myself and live in You. You expect me to fall, but are always there to catch me.  I cannot keep beating myself up when I sin and feel shame. For that is not of you. I must stop believing in the lies that tell me that I am not even worthy to talk to You. For you have said in Your word,  “But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy,  made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved.” – Ephesians 2:4-5

 

Just like Adam and Eve. They sinned by disobeying God and when they did it says in Genesis 3:7  “At that moment their eyes were opened, and they suddenly felt shame at their nakedness.” There are consequences when we sin, but God still remains merciful. “And the LORD God made clothing from animals skins for Adam and his wife.” – Genesis 3:21

 

 

Even though Adam and Eve sinned, God still made them clothes to hide their shame. To get rid of it.  (Got sent this verse from a very special friend this morning and she mentioned to me about that. So Thank You My Dear) And it got me thinking. When I sin and feel shame, I shouldn’t because God has already given me clothing. The blood of the Lamb has covered my sin.

 

For God delights in me and I can picture Him saying this to me. “O my beloved, you are as beautiful as the lovely town of Tirzah. Yes, as beautiful as Jerusalem! You are as majestic as an army with Banners! Look away, for your eyes overcome me!” – Song of Songs 6:4 – 5

This is my Beloved and I am His

Taken from a friend’s facebook ^^