Listening to some speaker named Hank on the drive to the Temple and he posed this question. Which made me think the rest of the ride.
Trusting God with everything is a big issue for me. And I kinda re-evaluated this during the trip, especially when I got home.
And I realized; no matter what, you really need to trust Him. Even though it may seem like the worst choice, if He says it’s gotta be that way, then it does. His will is always right and will bring about the best.
Lately, it seems emotional issues are attacking me from every direction. And just when I think it’s ok, I get only a few hours before the next wave hits.
So I guess that’s why I found myself face-down on my floor. Which can be quite comfy actually, but that’s beside the point. And then, ‘Hank’ ‘s words came back to me.
Do I believe Him?
Hank said something else. God wants to make our hopes and dreams come true, but if we don’t believe Him, how can He?
So God wants me to be happy. And if I want to be that way, I gotta let God lead me there and I gotta believe that He’s leading me there.
I guess my floor may have my face imprinted on it soon, because I’ve come to realize; a LOT of big decisions need to be made and soon.
And I’ve gotta believe that God wants that for me too and will make it happen.
Here’s to hoping I can learn fast.
Pretty much anything Leonard Cohen puts out I find relates to me in some manner, this being no exception (actually, the exact opposite LOL). Now, it’s not Cohen singing (this song of his is the only one I find very dull when he sings it, except when he was younger), it’s some guy named Antony and yes, he moves to the music weird when he sings, but his voice is gorgeous. This is another religious type song I don’t find fake or obnoxious.
The whole theme of the song is submitting yourself to and following God’s will, something I’m working on, as I think many of us are. It’s a hard concept to go with, trying to accept that an unseen force (or being if you wish) will, when you let it (Him), take you where you need to go and help/show/do what is best for you (if you noticed, I’m having an issue with words =P), even though, at the time, it may not seem so.
There are a few particular events in my life where I am pretty much resisting, full force, going with God’s will because I am so worried about them (that and I’m a stubborn butt head the majority of the time LOL). I don’t want to do this, yet I can’t give up the determination that has kept me going in a positive manner because I don’t want to be told ‘no’ in the end, regardless if it’s the best way for me.
I read a story somewhere (probably a chain email) about a woman whose son was dying and she prayed, bargained etc for his life but he got progressively worse. Only when she finally said ‘Ok, you do it.’ (or some variation on that) did he finally get better. That’s one thing that inspires me to keep going in my fight against my own fight XD. Plus some scriptures, but I’ve highlighted so much it would take forever to find and quote(something tells me it’s in Enos, I’d have to check my journal though, I practically highlighted that whole chapter)
WordPress is being stupid so I can’t go below the link, but enjoy the vid.
Live long & prosper!!♥